best of life
My life is quite different from the last time I posted in here. Today when I logged in, I had no intention to write anything, majorly because these days, my writing sessions involve a private text I probably won’t be showing anyone. I have always shared here whatever I have felt and I think that it’s time I deal with my feelings alone so I don’t bother sharing it online, however, my logging in and taking a brief look at my site made me realize that I have neglected for a year now and it hadn’t done me any good, so I thought that a little sharing won’t hurt me in the slightest. It might as well help me make my mind more clear, so here goes…
As we grow up, things around us change, gradually very slowly, each day passes and it doesn’t feel like things are changing, yet somehow things seems nothing like before when we take a look at the picture from a distance. In the course of these changes, we have to take certain decisions, based on certain parameters which lead our life to the point where we are. I have always taken decisions based on what makes me happy, it was never difficult, because as a child, our parents taught us to take decisions based, first on morale followed by what pleases us, resulting in us becoming somewhat confident individuals, but there comes a time when you have to fight for your own self, your family cannot protect you any more, may be because you grow up. Currently I am in a situation where I fail to understand what is more important to me, rather I do not understand that what would make me more happy. Even if I do figure out the source of happiness, the route leading towards it also have some barriers, which are very very difficult to cross. If I choose the path having no barrier, I may get lost in my pursuit leading towards failure. In short, I can definitely not explain the tidal waves after waves of panic and changed decisions roaring inside me, making me double minded, for the first time in my life ever! But I have shared it in the hope that someone might relate and it is always better to find out that you are not the only one. I am not asking you to share you story, in fact I want my dilemma to be of some use to any one out there who’d feel as confused as I am.
Our lives are surrounded by a variety of movies, books and stories. As the busiest and the most intelligent species thriving on this planet, we love to be entertained, and this entertainment usually does come in the form of a good movie weekend or a nice book. It is so because these things offer us an escape from our real world and allow us to go through a different expedition each time we explore a new one. The best part about this entire journey is the fact that it allows us to be judgemental, not only toward how good the book/movie is rather about who’s the good guy and who’s the villain. We can clearly see who’s right and who’s wrong and we definitely want the “HERO” to triumph over the “VILLAIN” in order to make it a happy ending of our choice.
This routine processing of our brains in general made me ponder over a specific attitude of humans, which is, that,
“We are very much capable of judging good from evil when presented in a self explanatory manner, but we definitely do not have a sight to see the evil within ourselves”
I say that because whenever we consider any situation of our very own life “co-starring” other people near us, we always think of ourselves as the Hero of the story, seeing a villain in those we do not like. We do not intend to think, for even once, that we may be acting as a typical bad guy for someone, ruining their situation and disturbing their story. Some may call this human nature, but I believe that it is also in the nature of a human to change oneself, have a flexibility in ones mind to accept, at least for once that yes, I am wrong, and that I was being unreasonable, even though that does seem impossible, but conquering this, can only make us the Hero we want to feel inside ourselves.
I have been wanting to write for ages, my last post, if I remember correctly, in fact I just checked it, was more than a month ago. I couldn’t write because of the thing which happens every six month in my life only to disturb my routine life and immerse me in my books, i.e , EXAMS!! Last month, all the published prompts were more than amazing and I wanted to write for each and every oe of them but exams came in my path of blogging.
Exams ended last week, but after the exams, I was so so so tired of words, letters and books that I did not want to think, even though I have had I few ideas pending and a novelette to complete, I did not feel like writing at all. But today I feel like I am back to my online life. No matter how much I go on using Facebook, keep on crushing the candies, and stalk my so-called friends, I miss my blog and I am glad that I am back. 🙂
What I love about myself is the fact that I can be organized to a good extent, so I try to keep my stuff, my room, my cupboards all clean.
Now, about my favourite person, that is to say my mother, even though I love everything about her, the best thing is that she keeps her head cool and impartial at all times, making her capable of making choices, which do not cross our minds under pressured or normal conditions. The ways we are correlated by this are:
- Whenever I get well out of even my own control in arranging my siblings’ stuff, she cools me down.
- Also that due to a systematic mind, she herself arranges all that stuff of mine which I don’t bother to touch.
- And another thing which I am proud to have similar to my mom’s yet not relatable to this post is that my cooking flavours are similar to her’s.. 🙂
What was the last thing you searched for online? Why were you looking for it?
Photographers, artists, poets: show us SEARCHING.
Last thing I searched on google was the recipe for making a lasagna. I do have a rough idea how to make it, but since I just make it once a year, I don’t remember the recipe and I don’t bother to write it either. Even did I search for it, I didn’t follow a single one, but did something on my own, taking a guide from my mother and it did turn out well. 🙂
6:00AM: the best hour of the day, or too close to your 3:00AM bedtime?
Photographers, artists, poets: show us DAWN.
To me, 6:00 am is a very good time, firstly, because these days it is in the range of the time for Fajr prayer, the best thing to start your day with, secondly, whenever I have woken up at six, I have had a highly productive day, because I would try to tackle some of my studies at that time, and would manage not just some, but quite a lot.
Also that this dawning time always provides the best refreshing air to me, so I find it extremely good. but the problem comes to the fact that I don’t usually have the energy to wake up at this time, but when I do it is very good. And last of all, it is the time I am usually having the few last minutes of the sleep, which are the most treasured moments before waking up. 🙂
“And they lived happily ever after.” Think about this line for a few minutes. Are you living happily ever after? If not, what will it take for you to get there?
I am living happily, if it will be ever after or not, I do not know. but right now, I am in my best, Alhamdulillah, I am studying, I have the best teachers, yes I am lucky in the sense that all my teachers are very very good, this makes life really easy and those going through the worst of their school life might possibly be facing very bad teachers. Next to it, my parents and family, I do have a perfect one, my parents are highly supportive in every step I take, except perhaps when I am about to harm anyone or myself. The siblings I have got are also very nice not because they also behave properly with me but because they bicker, fight, laugh, learn and be nice to me all at once. In short I couldn’t have had a better life. I have all I can ask for and even things I haven’t asked for.. 😀